some nights i stay up cashing in my bad luck (bad song lyric titles are back like high school again)

Being a first year teacher is extremely stressful but I think I’m getting the occasional overwhelming anxiety under control. My friend had a panic attack on Thursday, but she is also teaching something for which she is wholly unqualified and also her students know it and therefore take advantage and make her class difficult, so it’s understandable. I feel terrible for her but it has helped me put my own situation in perspective; I am in relatively in a much better place, teaching stuff I am much more qualified and capable of teaching. So basically I should stop being such an ungrateful, whiny little shithead and be more positive and work on what I do control. And I will try to do that. Doesn’t mean I won’t be complaining at all. Because like how could I even give that up? Complaining is my favourite thing to do.